Charlotte Ritchie "howled like a child" when she watched her character Nurse Barbara's tragic death on "Call the Midwife" last weekend.
The 28-year-old actress decided to leave the medical period drama because she didn't want to become too "complacent" but she has admitted, although it was her decision to quit, she cried her eyes out when her alter ego died from septicaemia.
Speaking on "Lorraine" on Friday (09.03.18), she said: "I knew it was going to happen and I still howled like a child, which feels really weird.
"I have known for a long time and I was wishing I wouldn't cry, as I think there's something weirdly narcissistic about crying about your own death.
"But it was just everything, it was saying goodbye to the show, I love it so much. But it was done beautifully and I feel really glad and really proud that I got to say goodbye in that way. I was a fan before I joined [the show]."
And the brunette beauty has admitted it was a tough decision to make because it was a "wonderful job" and she really enjoyed working alongside her cast mates.
She explained: "It was such a hard decision to make.
"I love it. It's the most wonderful job. It was just the sort of time to go, I think. My character Barbara had had such a gorgeous arc."
And, although she's walked away from "Call the Midwife", it won't be the last time fans see her on screen as she's hoping to bag herself a new role in a different series.
She said recently: "I've been locked in to three different shows for about five years, which is so lucky and amazing. But there was a possibility I could try new things and I thought, when will be the right time to go?"